Happy February. It is officially my birthday month. I will be 26 years old on the 17th. I am not where I thought I would be in life by this time and it has taken a lot for me to accept that. The entire month of January was full of me stressing out about it. It was just one anxiety attack after another. I even stopped eating at one point because I could not deal with my feelings. I think it got to the point where I was consuming probably around 800 calories on a good day. Do you know how messed up you have to be to ignore all of your hunger cues and your body screaming at you to eat?
Anyway, I made a promise to myself that I am going to be kinder to myself this month and celebrate the fact that I have been blessed with the life I have. I have my family and my health and that is all that should matter. I know I am not where I want to be but I am where I am supposed to be at this point in time. Over the next few weeks I want to dedicate this blog to recording and writing about the things I am learning during my self love and self acceptance month. I want to talk about mental health, the steps I am taking to reach my goals, the books I am reading, the podcasts I am listening to, and anything else that can be used to aid in my journey.
I also think it will be fun to close out my posts with a song lyric or a quote that correlates with the post or with whatever I am feeling. So with that being said the first lyric is from Victoria Justice’s new song Treat Myself. ” I need to treat myself better I really can be so unkind I know that I deserve better if only you could hear what goes on inside my head. I wouldn’t say the things I do to anybody else so why’s it okay to say to myself? I need to treat myself better.”
A little bit of everything 